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Be Careful When Casting Out Demons
“Be careful when casting out demons lest you cast out the best part of yourself.” —Nietzsche
As a child, I used to tell my mom I just wanted to be normal. I am normal now. I have a wife and one kid and I own a mocha-colored Oldsmobile minivan and a black Jetta station wagon. I live in a three-bedroom two-bath single-story ranch home surrounded by wooden fencing. I have two computers, four televisions, three gaming systems, a treadmill, a crossbow resistance system, two bicycles with a child trailer. I have camping gear and hiking equipment and fishing tackle and poles. I have art supplies and scrapbooks and power tools and a workbench that I used to fix up my kid’s playground in the backyard. I am a manager at a mid-sized corporation and manage projects with our company’s senior and executive leadership. I have debt that I’m working my way out of and I still rent a home but have a great view of Camelback Mountain. I rarely talk about my past anymore because I’m ashamed of it. I used to tell everybody anything and say the most obnoxious things just for the hell of it. Now I am concerned about everything I say and feel I need to learn to just keep my mouth shut. I haven’t drank and almost 2 years and I’ve removed myself from fraternizing with anyone who may threaten my relationship with my wife or bring too much drama to my family. I no longer feel tormented by my demons and by casting out my demons, I fear I may have cast out the best part of myself.
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